It’s ok to fall… what’s important is to get back up

On the journey to bettering myself and my life, I am finding that the ups and downs seem to be more pronounced. It’s as if now that I’m “awake”, aware of the nature of my thoughts, words and actions, and aware of (or noticing) what they create into my reality, everything is becoming more obvious to me. 

Planting the seed

You see, I learned about the Law of Attraction many years ago, but I didn’t actually start to really apply it until about 2 years ago. Like many of you, I was skeptical about what I had heard.

I probably had the same thoughts as you did when I watched the movie The Secret: “Wow! That’s amazing! But… there’s no way that stuff could ACTUALLY happen for me. Sure, it’s easy for them to talk about all that fluffy good stuff NOW.”

But the work had already been started. My “awakening” had already begun.

Awakening

So I let it simmer within me, for a long time. And when things were going south, a little voice inside me that I hadn’t heard before began to urge me:

“This can’t be it. Life shouldn’t feel this bad. It’s not meant to be this way. There’s more to life than this. Life is supposed to be better than this”

But I didn’t listen.

I let my life spiral further and further down until I hit my rock bottom. Until it hurt so much that the voice inside me screamed “That’s enough!”.

Picking myself up

I found myself watching The Secret again (Thank goodness it’s on Netflix!) and it lead me to research some of the speakers. I wrote down inspiring quotes and pieces of information that resonated with me as I came across them. I focused on them; studied them.

I was determined to feel better; to find a better way. 

A better way to live my life. A better way to BE. And then someone close to me told me about Esther Hicks, and Abraham. She pointed me to YouTube, where I discovered the wealth of free digital audios that exist. Soon, the more positively oriented content I consumed, the more it resonated with me, and I found myself trying it out. Not because I wanted to get rich, meet the man of my dreams, and have my dream job. I still didn’t quite believe that those things could happen for me. But I chose things that I considered small but obvious enough that if they manifested into my life, I would know that it was because I applied the Law of Attraction. That’s how I eventually manifested my car. Anyone that knows me, know how much I love my car. It’s MY car; my baby. It’s exactly everything I wanted. And I am unapologetic about having it.

The process

By then though, I was listening to positive audios every moment that I could. As I woke up and went through my morning routine; in my car during my morning and evening commute to and from work; while I walked the dog; and then in the evenings, I watched videos and did more research. I read and watched everything I could get my hands on.

I basically brainwashed myself; but in a positive way 🙂

I can’t tell you exactly what I did, step by step. I do know that I started to feel a lot better really quickly. And I started to notice that on days where I didn’t listen to my audios, I didn’t feel as good. I also noticed that when I didn’t feel as good, I tended to have really bad days. And the better I felt, the more addicted to it I became, and the worse it felt when I didn’t feel good.

So there it is: my confession

I am addicted to feeling good.

Nothing else will do.

And when I don’t feel good, I REALLY don’t feel good.

But I don’t want to have internal fits anymore. I don’t want to beat up on myself anymore after having a bad day or a bad week. In fact, I find that the more I beat up on myself for not feeling good, the more I delay my climb back up to better feeling things.

So on top of the positive energy work that I am doing, I am adding the practice of not kicking myself so much when I’m not flying high. And here’s what I’m learning:

It’s ok to have bad days. 

It’s ok to have bad weeks.

But each new day is a new opportunity to start over. 

Every morning, when you wake up, you start fresh. You have the choice of either picking up the negative momentum that you had going on the day before, or choosing a better feeling thought. You can choose to have a better day than you had the day before.

And when you’ve fallen off the wagon, even if it’s for a while, you can’t expect to be able to fly high again immediately. But you can sit up, choose to remember that there is a better way – a better way to think, and a better way to feel – and slowly start getting back up.

And at the end of this day, you can go to bed and say to yourself “Well ok, today wasn’t great, but it was better than yesterday. And tomorrow will be even better.”

That’s how you apply the Law of Attraction. 

Tiny choices, tiny decisions to keep your thoughts away from bad feeling things, and aiming them towards good feeling things.

And slowly, you will begin to show yourself, that it works for you too.

I’m not a super successful millionaire genius speaker like the people on The Secret, but I’ve taught myself that comparing myself to them will get me nowhere. I’m just taking my journey slowly, one step at a time, making incremental adjustments as I go, and letting life guide me towards my own definition of happiness.

Nothing else will do.

How about you?

– Mel